A Mother’s Peace. A Father’s Joy.

My son just accepted Jesus Christ as his Lord and Savior! We pray every night at bedtime. Daddy, then Mommy, then Javan. Usually Javan thanks God for a few random things…the sun, electricity, roofs…and then tells Him he loves Him. Tonight, though, after we indulged his request to “tickle all his body parts,” he thanked God for movies, and then said, “And there’s something else I want to thank you for.” Then there was a long pause as he put his words together. I thought maybe he had forgotten what he was going to say. Then I heard, “And thank you Jesus for dying on the cross….(turning to Mom and Dad) But why did he die on the cross?”

We briefly covered Jesus’ earthly life, death, and resurrection and how he took our punishment for sin so we could live with God in Heaven. In case you’re wondering, yes, we’ve covered these topics before. Often. But tonight was just different. We asked him if he believed all this was true. Yes. (He has said no before, by the way.) We asked him if he felt ready to ask Jesus into his heart and live for Jesus and covered some of what that meant. We told him he could wait if he wasn’t ready. But he was.

I tearfully listened to a father guide his son in the prayer that saved his soul. It was a sacred time. My husband. Our son. I know I will remember that feeling forever.

Javan’s behavior has been so gentle, sweet, and loving. And he’s been so communicative, although his responsiveness still doesn’t always occur on our terms. It hasn’t been one of those periods of time when I feel like my son isn’t really here. He’s here. And I know he made and understood this decision. Now, no matter what joys and frustrations he may or may not experience as a human being, as a person with autism and bipolar disorder, as a boy, as a man, no matter in what ways we as parents fail him or how the world fails him, he will be made whole on the day of resurrection and he will live eternally with his Father who loves him.

This is a mother’s peace I’ve never known.



2 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Weebo
    Jan 05, 2012 @ 22:30:36

    Wow! How sweet it is! Amen!


  2. Ken Olson
    Jan 05, 2012 @ 22:34:44

    Such an awesome experience for you all — so proud of my son and my grandson for taking a stand and making a commitment to God! So thankful that you shared this with the world, and thankful to God for the great things He has done! Rejoicing with the angels in heaven! Love you guys so much! Dad Olson (Pops)


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